God is a mystery
It’s clear to me
Maybe I can’t look in
But I will keep tryin’
I’m serious, bit delirous
Overcome with emotion
But I won’t give up
Won’t beat self up
I won’t trip up
I will stand up
And feel this through
See this through
Follow through
I’m not done
There’s things I took a part in
Know some things now
Some mysteries are clearer
Anyhow
Let’s grow up now
But don’t screw up now
No dropping the mike
Don’t get off the hike
I’m stuck now
Stuck on God
Stuck on figuring Him out
Stuck on not giving up
Not growing up
Not dropping down
I’m doubling down
I’m getting up
Not pushing notn’ down
I’m pushing up
Prodding up
Figuring out
Growing up
And giving up
Some of my freedoms now
I can’t go back
Back to black
Back to back
Feeling something
Feeling nothing
Feeling unreal
Feeling sorry, worry
Feeling trapped and useless
Chasing feeling
Think I’m floating freely
Hold on, really
Is that real
Is there appeal
Is there love there
Real love there
Real life there
I don’t know
Don’t think so
Don’t I know
I think so
I know so
You know so
We are in the know
This verse is over
Turn the page over
Yet no starting over
Just caryover
Cause life is a mystery
And God is a mystery
I am a mystery
But I’m not history
I will make history
I just know it
Its there
Proof is there
I feel it
Can’t bear it
It’s burning in me
I said, It’s burning in me
Can’t escape it
Can’t let it out
Can’t get rid of it
Can’t shake it
Can’t shake it off
Call it a whitnes
Some think I’m witless
But I know
Its there
It’s no illusion
Its no delusion
I’ll let no derision
Come on me
Stick to me
Cause I’m not the cause of it
I didn’t put it there
I didn’t ask for it
Didn’t fight for it
I fought against it
Entertained unbelief
But it brought no relief
What is it
Where did it come from
And came in what form
Didn’t expect it
But it dropped on me
Then it dripped on me
For many years
It’s heavy
On my knees
Brought me to my knees
Brought on pacing
Mind is racing
Restless, peaceless
But also resting
And peaceful
It’s all a mystery
And I’m a mystery
Cause God is a mystery
And His ways are a mystery
Living history
Making history
Part of His Story
History
In the making
Mind is aching
Quacking
Preconceptions shattering
No longer mattering
Cause I’m trusting God
Trying not to wrestle God
No more vain tussle, God
No more vain hustle, God
Only Your plan
Whaterever is
Whatever will be
However will be
That will be
I will be
Cause He is and always will be
He started it
He will finish it
Will replenish it
Will revive my strength
Renew my strength
Like an eagle
I’m no dung beetle
Won’t be digging in dung
Final verse is done
Lines won’t run on
Won’t run off on me
I’m taming them
Bringing them to the end
To an end of trust
Where God is
And remains a mystery.